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Submitted by dawn on Tue, 07/28/2009 - 22:09
Hi, I'm Dawn... I am so relieved right now. I just found this site today.
I have never spoken to anyone with trichotillomania, it started when I
was 12 yrs. old and I am 38 now! I need to relate to someone, so badly. I'm tired of trying to explain what it feels like to other people.
I appreciate my Mom and my friend,Christy listening and trying to
understand but there is no way they truly can, only we do!! I have
always needed to talk to someone with trich, to fill in this horrible void
in my life. I regret not doing this sooner but I am trying now!
When it first started,I thought, it was a weird habit and that's it but
I absolutely couldn't stop. I never understood why I was addicted to pulling out my own hair! I was being severely teased at school and at
night I would pull my hair out, while thinking about the next day at
school and being scared. That was the beginning of the "TRIGGER"..
Of course, I did not know that or even knew what a trigger was! I was
just a young girl!! The sad part is,it has never stopped since then...
One day,my moved moved my bed over and saw tons of hair on the
floor. (I never told her I was doing this) I had no explanation and she
did not know what to do and thought I would just stop, I guess. She
really regrets that now but I do not blame her,this was the early 80's
and disorders were not known then... I would ask doctors why I did
this periodically, throughout my life, during regular visits,but they
looked at me weird and had no idea what to say or knew what it
meant either!I did not know there was a name for it until I was 23.
It was a relief to know it wasn't my fault but with no insurance or extra money,no help! It amazes me to see this on T.V now and rel-
ieved that it is known.
The worst thing now,is looking back,the more I realize how this
disorder is literally,engulfing my life and I am scared it will never get
better. Also, I'm very miserable and cannot take it anymore,at times.
I am constantly in the WORRYING/PANIC/ANXIETY,state of mind.
I have goals,dreams,healthy motives,smart but cannot seem to change
anything!! I isolate alot,hide. I'm tired of being judged and made fun of. I defend myself and explain but its exhausting. I pull from my scalp
and underneath. My hairline is thin and bald spots. Its very annoying
when people say why dont you stop? Like,anyone really wants to lose
there hair on purpose! I mean,obviously I do not function normal.
I do not feel sorry for myself,I am just so burned-out. I have insur-
ance now.Tried counseling,medicines but no...I need solutions,better
methods. I am guilty of not trying a little harder though or following
through,I am a fighter but I surrender to it more than I wish too! I
have read alot about it,amino acids are supposed to help,bad carbohydrates are a trigger in the brain for anxiety,so,I am trying to
watch that and vitamins are crucial. Anyway,whoever reads this,
thank you for taking the time. I hope to get to know people. Take care,
God Bless...my faith is crucial for my life...in all ways....
Hi there! I just finished
Hi there! I just finished writing a reply to "Hatestopull" so I encourage you to check it out. I think I will go ahead and post my story.....it is very similar to yours. I am reluctant to give advice because I am not completely pull free. The only thing that I can say about it now is that I am not haunted by my past. I have reconciled all the hurts from all the things that have been said and done to me as well as all the things I have said and done to others. Pulling is just that.....it is a response to anxiety, depression, whatever. We are not demented or crazy. For you my friend the best thing I can say to you is have grace and understanding for who God has created you to be and remember that His perfect love is sufficient.
Thank you for responding, it
Thank you for responding, it was great to hear feedback.....
I do have a hard time letting go of the "yesterdays". I know
dwelling on things causes most of my anxiety. I have faith,love
God,have been blessed and trust his will. Yet, there is a constant
struggle in my mind, at times...(human nature)!! Please post your
story...It almost made me cry hearing someone say there story is
similiar to mine!!! Have a good day.....God Bless You...
Dear Dawn. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
Dear Dawn.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE. In fact, it is quite the opposite. There are a ton of people out there like you and me, who's minds are often engulfed in thoughts about pulling, when to pull, where to pull, what to pull, that all consuming habit that we can't let go of. People not understanding, telling us to just stop, as if it were that easy. Its not about surrendering its not about trying harder, its not your fault. I was lucky enough to find out that there was a name to what I did fairly young, I was 13, and that there were others that did the same thing. It helps to know that your not weird, not crazy, not unusual. I am glad you came upon this site and have the same feelings. This is the first thing I have ever posted and the first time I have ever been on this site. The first time I have ever talked about it to someone who knows what I go through everyday first hand. I hope knowing you are not alone helps, it helps me everyday.
Thank you for responding...it
Thank you for responding...it is great to hear feedback and help-
ful. It does help knowing I am not alone. I feel better already just
talking about it and relating with you. I was curious, have you tried
any methods of help? I got into contact with a Neuro Research pro-
gram,a doctor e-mailed me, so I'll let you know if anything good
happens!!! My biggest problem that causes most of my anxiety is
dwelling on things, especially from the past.. I love God and trust
his will but it is a constant struggle in my mind...(human nature)
Anyway, have a good day and God Bless