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Hello to everyone here...
My Name is Kali. I've been a hair puller since I was 13 years old, i am now 33 years old. I have been to every counselor on this earth (okay maybe not everyone but it sure feels that way) not one counselor has been able to help me when it comes to my hair pulling. Every once in a while I'm able to go two months (three if i'm VERY lucky) without hair pulling but it always returns and seems to come with a vengance when it does return. I have to shave my head often because my hair pulling is so extreme. I've been wearing wigs for a very long time. I get so frustrated because i feel like i am pretty, i have 8 beautiful children. Two of my girls started pulling out their hair when their father died 4 years ago but they were able to stop and haven't pulled for a couple years now. They try to give me advice on what too do to stop but nothing seems to work for me. I even pull until my head bleeds. Usually seems like the more painful the spot the more i choose that spot to pull. I'm one of the people who only goes for the hairs that have roots on them, i touch the root to my lips then usually bite it off, which is extremely embarassing to admit because i think that's the more extreme hair pullers. I don't even understand why i have to play with the root or bite it????? Lately i've been pulling my eye lashes out, which even for me is out of the ordinary because usually it's my legs or head hairs that i pull. I wish someone would wave a magic want above my head so that i never have to even think about pulling my hair out but i realize that's not reality. I've been wanting to talk to other people who pull their hair. The support would be nice not to mention talking to someone who actually knows what i'm going through as apose too never having trich. Anyways, i look forward too meeting people on this site. Maybe this is the support that I need to be able to overcome trich.

Sincerely,
Kali