Help me....

Hi,

You can call me lissa..:)..
I don't know how to start this but i ve pulling out my hair since i was 10 years and i am 27 now...gosh, dat quite long rite( plz note dat im not from europe country, so forgive me 4 my poor english)
I never know we have name for dis behaviour and i always denied dat i ve dis problem disorder.
This is bcz i thnk i hve normal family, i meant we re happy and always there 4 each other, i have a good job and friends dat i always hang up together ~im x married yet~
In my country, there's pple dat will use shawl for cover their head and im one of them even actually i dont want to....
This bcz i need to cover my bald head and i hate myself for that
I pulling out my hair coz i luv d sensation feel of it and rubbing are x wrking, bcz of my bad behaviour i x do the things dat i always want to do such as swimming, saloon, sleep over in my frens place etc coz i never and never tell anyone about dis...( i hide behind my shawl)>> i never show my hair to them
I also rejected pple dat want to be in serious relationship wif me and dis really make me so sad...i feel bad for myself
I scared that i will never feel happy bczz there a lot of thing in my life dat i want to do but i holding it back coz i have no hair.....plz advice how can i stop dis

Thanks for your help and forum cz dis my very first time to talk about dis... :)