Just venting

Hi everyone. I'm new on here and don't really know what to say except I'm glad there are places like this for people with Trich to go where they don't feel so alone. I'm a 23 year old female. I've been pulling my eyelashes since I was 10 and my eyebrows now for about three years. They say there's an initial underlying cause for Trich but I've never been able to figure it out. My parents are divorced and I didn't have the greatest childhood, but who does? Why do I have to pull out my hair and why can't I stop? I assume everyone has asked themselves that question. I'm not caught up on why I started pulling anymore, I just want a solution so I can quit. I work and go to college and carry on a normal life but inside I'm dying. Sometimes it doesn't really bother me because I'm just used to Trich being a part of my life, but other times I hate it and want to crawl out of my skin. I haven't had eyelashes for about 6 1/2 years now. There were a couple years in between that I had a full set but I don't remember what made me stop pulling because it was a long time ago and at the time I didn't know what was wrong with me and hadn't told anybody about my problem. Then, I had a pulling spree when I was a junior in highschool. I pulled them all out and haven't had them since. That's when I found out what Trichotillomania was. I still have some eyebrows but have been pulling them a lot worse lately. I have always wanted to meet someone with Trich so I could have someone to talk to who truly knew how I felt. Anyway, I was feeling down and wanted to vent :) If anyone wants a penpal, my e-mail is nickel.m@hotmail.com.