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i am 20 years old and have been pulling my hair out since i was 10. i have very thick hair and in most ways i wear my hair you can not tell i pull it out. but it is getting very very tiring not being able to stop-having this demon inside of me constantly wanting to feel that sensation. i look at pictures of myself before age 10 and miss and long for my beautiful hair. it gives me chills to think of all the short pieces of hair that are sticking up all over my head. it has made me yearn to shave my head and start over. i love the feeling. i just want to know WHY i pull, and if i stop, WHAT emotions are going to come from this? am i hiding something from myself?
i have horrible self-esteem, especially when it comes to thinking about guys liking me. i get very down in the dumps and have some social issues. i am scared of what i am hiding from myself.
i want to stop but i always end up saying, "oh well" and pulling anyway.