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Hi, i'm stephanie. A bulb eater.
I've pulled my hair since 5th grade, so that's about 7 years now.
I'm a bulb eater, meaning when I pull my hair and it has a root attached to it (that little white thing that is occasionally on the bottom of your hair) i eat it. It becomes an obbsession to eat them, to pull out as many as I can.
I don't have a lot of hair (not from pulling) just in general. But the hair I do have is very thick, and wide. I pull out hairs that have a different texture or feel slightly a bit thicker than the others.
I'm currently going to therapy and i'm taking the anti-depressant/OCD medicine called Paxil (30 mg) and it seems to help. It doesn't make me stop completely but my urges go down. I take two vitamin E's everyday because they're known for helping your hair grow faster, and it has made my hair even thicker than before.
I just recently told my family, about a year ago. And I have only now, within the past few months, become comfortable talking to them about it. It helps me sometimes that they know, because I don't stress about hiding it at home. But sometimes it makes it worse because the way they look at me changes. With my mother, she has stopped looking at me and only looks at my hair, and it breaks my heart.
I'm constantly ashamed. My therapist told me it's mainly from anxiety because I have this issue with trying to please everybody and when I can't I become stressed etc.
A good tip I have learned is to wear gloves over your hands or bandaids on each fingertip.
Also, try writing down each time you pull a hair. I have to do this for therapy. It makes you more aware of your pulling and gives you something to do while that urge is still there. Just put the date, time, location, trigger, and how many hairs pulled. It helps, trust me.
Try not to be down on yourself for having this disease, I know it's hard but just remember to breathe. It's something you can't control, and if anyone ever makes fun of you for it...that makes them look bad, not you.
I'm Stephanie (17) that's all for now.
Hey, I'm 16 and totally
Hey, I'm 16 and totally embarrassed about my trich. Cuz I guess I'm a "bulb eater" too. But I really don't like that term... I don't like any of these terms...
Just, how did you deal with telling your parents? Because my mom has trich too, so does my sister, but none of are really willing to admit it besides me and my sister talking in private.
Because I really am scared that this will eff me up if I don't stop soon. Because there's all these people talking about how they've had it for 20, 30, 40 plus years... and I don't want that to happen to me. /: